Cheesecake is definitely one of my weaknesses. Funny that I never liked it growing up, but now it is my absolute favourite dessert!! Yummo!!

And my Gran is the QUEEN of cheesecakes.. oh they are just soooo good. Mint choc-chip and Mars Bar cheesecakes are the specialty, and my favourites... oh *droool* just thinking about them!

But, I am going to stop at *one* piece! And make that a small one too! There's no way I would go without it (I only vist my Gran every few months, so this is my treat!)... but I am not going to be a little piggie either... I will have a small piece of cheesecake and maybe a bit of custard to go over it... and that's it!! NO MORE *huge* piece of cheesecake, 2 scoops of icecream, jelly and custard to fill the whole bowl... MODERATION.. MODERATION... MODERATION...

It feels good just saying it!!

Nat :)

I had my gorgeously thin sister over today (in fact, they are both gorgeously thin - black sheep here!!)... and my Mum... As we were talking diets and such, it came up in conversation who has what parts of which family.

My two sisters have Mum's 'big bum'... mind you they are both size 8/10, so really its not a big bottom at all, but it just sticks out a bit, in proportion to the rest of them... lucky me, doesn't have the 'big bum' gene.. (I say as I'm currently a size 18 with a bum 3 or 4 times bigger than both of them... but my bum is SMALL I say!! LMAO!!)

So, what a thing to look forward to! When I am skinny (and I much liked hearing these words) I'm not going to have a bum.. and for once I can call THEM "big bum" (although I won't) and I'll have nothing! Lol!! Love it!! Mind you, in that case, my pants will have nothing to fill out the bums, and no doubt I'll wish I had a 'bum'. Although, I think I can be happy thinking that I don't have the bum I do now though!!

Unfortunately we don't have Mum's boobs. We all have virtually nothing. And while right now, at 25kgs heavier than my sisters I DO have boobs, I know that these will be the first things to go... I swear they are going already! So far I've only lost 2.7kgs and already my boobs feel smaller!! What is with that!! Why can't I just choose where the weight goes from? So woe is me, when I am skinny, I am going to have no bum and no boobs. But as my sister said, it's better to have a skinny body and no boobs that a 'meaty' body and boobs. I agree. I'll just have to be content with my little flat tummy won't I!

Nat :)

DANG!! I really gotta learn how to liven this page up - gotta *personalise* it.... man, just searching some other WWers blogs, and they look cool... mine is so drab compared...

So who's going to show me how to funky this up with pics, stats, links, plans etc!!???

Well, wahoo, whoopie and yeehaaa!!! I had a *good* night tonight!! I am still so excited about my weigh-in I most definitely cannot go to sleep! Tonight at Slimmers Club (which DH and I have nick-named 'Fat Club' - hmmm, shouldn't it be 'Skinny club' coz thats what I'll be doing! :)) I got on the scale at 94.1kg. And that's 1.85kgs DOWN on what I was last week!! Yeehaa!! What a loss!! What a motivation boost I tell ya!! And... I even won 'Acheiver of the Week', 2x $1 scratchies (which DH scratched a $2 win on too!)... what a boost!!

So yeah, you could say I'm ultra motivated tonight!! I'm sure if I could (that is, no sleeping child to watch) I'd run down the street and back!!

I too (like my good friend B) am starting to like exercise... [what a buzz to be called a gym-junkie!! I'd love that! I'd love to be so consistent, so motivated that it appeared that way... mind you, if I could afford a gym membership I might just give that a run for money...] So far, I'm mainly just walking... lol, I've even taken to running up and down my hallway (100-200 times!!) when I cannot leave Jaidyn alone... so how's THAT for motivation!! I'm pumped that I have had the motivation to run and walk up and down my hallway like a little old granny 3 times already, and may just have to make it a frequent thing!! (At least I can run and not worry about anyone being grossly turned off by all my jiggley bits!)

So here's to another good week, as I think I'll have to be *extra* good this week so that whopping loss doesn't turn back into a gain...

My goals for this week are:

* 3 or more stints of exercise (walking and/or aerobics)

* Eat my fruit and drink lots of water!

* Be good over the weekend (going to Gran's, so might have to practice all week saying 'No Thanks' to the Mars Bar or Choc-Mint Cheesecake... and yes, it IS as good as it sounds, so its not easy to resist!!!

Forward march!! Nat :)

OK, so this is something I've been deliberating for a few days now, but a good friend has just started her story through a blog, so I've decided to take the leap too. I know I have to get things down on paper (or onto the screen in this case) to keep myself motivated so here I go.

This is the umpteenth time I've tried to lose weight. So what is different this time you say? How is it going to work this time? Well, I am putting it down to a few different things that will make this time different, make this time work, make this time the time I reach success, and my goal weight.

Why do I want to lose weight? I am sick and tired of seeing all of my friends dress in all the latest gorgeous clothes, colours and trends, and myself wearing the same old, same old and still feeling like a balloon. I am a girly girl and want nothing more than to look ulta pretty in a flowy skirt, some cute shoes, and a cute top that doesn't have to 'hide' my stomach or fat arms. I WILL get into a size 12 and wear all the pretty feminine things my friends are! I am going to be HOT again!!

I am married, and I think I owe it to Greg to look fantastic. While I know he loves me as I am and thinks I have a great body, I truly don't see it, and I want to have a body he can REALLY ogle over!! I want to be proud of how I look, I want people to look at me and say 'I cant believe she's had a child - she has a great figure'... ok, so maybe I'm going into dream-mode a bit, but basically I want to look HOT for my husband.

I want to have energy again. I'm 22 and frankly I need my granny nap most days - how pathetic is that. I just don't have the energy and flexibility I need to keep up with and do what I'd like with my 4-yr old son. I think I owe it to him to be the Mum he deserves. I am a young mum so should have that as an advantage, but I don't coz I'm a young fat mum... I'm going to be the young mum that runs circles around my son and all the other mums!

How am I going to do it? Well this time, I'm not just trying to diet on my own. I have tried taht so many times and I know I just give up after a few days. What I really need is to be accountable. Now, I've tried this a few times with friends. We've got all excited about going walking and dieting together, but with busy lives and kids, it has taken a back-bench... so

#1: I took the step and joined a Slimming Club. I have to go every Monday night, I have to weigh-in and I have to stand up if I have gained... well I get to stand up if I've lost too, but thats the one I'd rather be doing...

#2: I've got a subscription to Slimming magazine, and this is so wonderful for motivating me every month - I wish it came out every week!! I read and re-read through the success stories, and hell, if they can do it, so can I!!

#3: I am starting this blog. Just another form of self-motivation, accountability and some destressing and letting go of what I'm feeling. I also plan to look back on this and see how far I've come (and I hope its further than I have now!)

#4: I'm scrapping a 'progress journal'... I know that if I put my efforts and time into making it, I'll just have to finish it! I'm making baby goals of 5kg lots, and documenting thoughts, trials, etc for each one in a keepsake pocket at the top of the album, as well as pics of how I look on my travels.

Ok, so that's enough from me for today. With this down, hopefully I can just keep plodding along, and you'll see me come out the other end. Wish me luck.

Nat :)